i think i know how the young man who is told to sell all his belongings, give to the poor, and follow Jesus felt like… the sadness. i get it. and i too walk away sadly… but will i actually do it? i don’t know. the story hasn’t ended… yet.
i think it’d be interesting if The Matrix were actually a choose-your-own-adventure book with an alternate course of events developing after Neo does not choose the red pill, but the blue pill instead. what would have happened then? or what happens to people who want to go back into the matrix? hmm, i’m one of those people so maybe i’ll let you know how my story unfolds.
i think i had a strong dose of “reality check” from fr. mark today. he speaks it so gently, but what he says has the force to knock one down. and he is being straightforward, but nebulous at the same time. and lots of laughter (on his part, not mine). lots of that familiar maniacal laughter. i don’t understand how i am “so obvious” to him, but completely in the dark about myself.
what do you see?
i think i still don’t want to see anything.